Saturday, January 19, 2019

Mary Oliver Poem

The Real Prayers Are Not the Words,
But the Attention tht Comes First


The little hawk leaned sideways and, tilted,
rode the wind. Its eye at this distance looked
like green glass; its feet were the color 
of butter. Speed, obviously, was joy. But
then, so was the sudden, slow circle it carved 
into the sightly silvery air, and the 
squaring of its shoulders, and the pulling into
itself the long, sharp-edged wings, and the 
fall into the grass where it tussled a moment,
like a bundle of brown leaves, and then, again,
lifted itself into the air, that butter-color
clenched in order to hold a small, still
body, and it few off as my mind sang out oh
all that loose, blue rink of sky, where does 
it go to, and why? 


Monday, January 14, 2019

~Art Curation * Draft in progress

The idea of the successful PROBE.
    This means ending up on the other side.
    How does one enter THAT zone?
Beginner rules sharpen focus.
Specific Standards matter over time.

There is work involved in unfolding
   the precise exchange with technique
   and the Technological Innovation
Realized as a better platform, ultimately;

*Draft

© 1//2019 rjduberg 

Sunday, January 06, 2019

~ The Sound Made by Trump a Thump

 The Sound of Impeachment
 *coming to a country near you today!

There's a sound made by Trump
   As he backs up his hump (around)
      in the WH these days.

The Beep Beep isn't pretty buy needy.
   So we all suffer with his fakiness
       Can we please impeach him now?

Stop (t)his noise now!

© 11//2019 rjduberg

Tuesday, January 01, 2019

~Poem Simplicity not simple

Make these complexities simpler
   so they don't go bad anyway
      the act of being rich rich bad
         isn't what I mean, want or need

Mistakes like that can ruin entire lives
   leave them drowning in the debris
      instead gird them against that hell
         that fate each uniquely reveals

Just enough to silence the unruly noise
   *stopping here to go to bed, dialysis, tomorrow 

© 7/2/2017 rjduberg

Letter to a Girlfiriend


I’m not really sure what to do with this new gained perspective on love.  As I look back over my life I can see this perspective play out over and over with differing degrees of maturity involved in its expression.  Tonight sees yet another cycle climax aligned and amplified in some degree by the New Year I think.

The truth for me is that I love the feminine in myself and others in which I find resonance and synchronicity and higher calling heard in my heart as a pulling gravitational pull of love that is synced in with mine in some important way.  Problem has always been that I destroy this access in its range by getting intimate with any one single female.  A few have stolen my heart for a time proportionate to the ferocity of their love for me.  There is an inherent danger in my sharing this with another whom I do appreciate and love for exactly her feminine resonance to my masculine. I cannot deny the level of maturity that has arisen, as is expressed by the unfolding vocabulary which is allowing me greater conscious access and concurrent skill in sharing exactly how I feel.  Maybe not?  LOL, but my sense of humor is enough to cover in the case of any mistakes I make, I hope.  It’s that hope that I am now somehow enamored with at least enough to move forward, OK then … I still have to make simple the complex here and believe me the phase is still a work/moment in progress. 

Mostly, I need honesty.  That last feminine attempt to breach my installed morality of patience having leap too many times into the clamoring abyss of love heart to heart was rocking my world right up until I wasn’t moving fast enough and her closing remark revealed an outright lie made in the lets see here kind of exploratory facade designed to gain access. 

Your kindness and love have sustained a bleak outlook here from becoming despairing or desperate. Thank you.
Love, rj, xox
 
 

Thursday, November 22, 2018

~ Breathing in Possibilities

Breathing in the Possibility 
for her coolness KLAmore

Those possibilities find feeling
     Now inside us.
          Here we hear their call
 
Breathing brings us to them.
A space of conscious
    transformation_
        _ beyond boudaries.

In that field, made famous
     by that eternal bard
          Rumi

And, its river of liberty -
     its source the
          divine heart

And, that feelig of juice!
     The river is bringing
         through style and grace!


© 11/2/2017 rjduberg

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

Moving Forwrd

This means - today, kind of jumping into Thanksgiving plans for Billy and I; which I have to share, disintegrated over previous commitments I had with doctors.  Will focus on KFC and my gratitude, especially; since, checking on a source of turkey, once again proved to be far too much trouble for the effort

Thank you all
Thank you self
Thank you world
Thank you cosmos
Thank you Lord and Source of All

*** Missing picture of the line out the door and around the corner

Monday, November 19, 2018

Documentation II B Further DraftING


Legend for Documention Paradigm




A) Legend
- Color
- Red = Triggers, complex areas
- Green = Works in Progress with following ground of being
- Blue

B) Intro to Organizational Structure for Models
- Formal Structure: includes ... Agenda, Purpose, Time, Rank, Gruntline (pathway to maximizing conditions for satisfaction), and Completion
- Comprehensive Design Branding
- Design Thesis: Complete Media Package
- Social Networks: Marketing, SEO, Visual optics, content


Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Documentation II - Draft

Nomenclature for Documentary Files Paradigm

A) Legend 
     - Color
          - Red    = Triggers, complex areas
          - Green = Works in Progress with following ground of being

B) Intro to Organizational Structure Models
  
    - Formal Structure: includes  ... Agenda, Purpose, Timne, Rank, Gruntline (pathway to maximizing conditions for satisfaction), and Completion

    - Comprehensive Design Branding
     - Design Thesis: Complete Media Package       
     - Social Networks: Marketing, SEO, Visual optics, content        

 

Monday, October 15, 2018

Documentation I

Where's Documentation Flow Today?

Dialysis
Doctor's Appt
Weather

2:52  Restarting Computer to check computer bug in dock.
2:59  Bug fixed ... turning to Morning Joe Program


Saturday, October 06, 2018

Project: Documentation Structure


Blue Sky Version:
Title,
 Goal or Standard Met along Documentation Metric,  
 Platform(s),
Parameters/Limitations

Monday, October 16, 2017

Catching Hell Online II

Due to utterly insufficient outlining tools provided by Blogspot... I won't  .providing any content here today




Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Working Out the Details

Working out the Details

I have now come to realization that a valuable story is one told by a one in a million narrators who shows others a mirror that brightens and does not dim.

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
 - Bob Dillon lyrical excerpt

My rage has caused far too much chaos between me and life in general. I will say that a better state to be in involves asking questions about life. How many times have I become intimate with alot of women just in order to ask questions of them they would never have thought of and I had fun sharing with them. Sometimes they had challenges and questions which surprised and astonished me. I don't feel that sexual fire like I used to although I am the same person, there's no doubt of that. As I work out the details to my senior days and where romance fits in with them, I'm still working out the dertails.

Writing a Book 

I have always considered writing a sellable story, one exciting to read, one with both dark and light in it, something with the kind of obvious radically extreme risk you find trending all over the internet. I am currently collaborating with a friend on her story, one that touches the heart and opens up a new reality that you really can’t understand except to see it in action.  Finally, I feel one story worth telling is one that gives me insight on not only what the most relevant questions are but the reason why.  

Put together a History.

Tell the truth whatever the consequence for awhile

Work out the Details.

Keep your tools sharp and in use.

What matters most?

What works and what does not?

So, endeth a spontaneous whirling rift on what I’ve been musing on about lately. Preludes to writing something out in detail, look like this.

Catching Hell Online

My position is that nothing beats the dynamic sexual tension which arises naturally in within the body so the action becomes desirable like and feels like one palette when hungry. There is great positive anticipation which feels so blissful that we begin to be more present to ourselves taking pleasure and not just the pain from our experience of life.  Except that we make others our audience, we will never know the joy associated with getting out oancf the way so that others can see the details to your message or what works.  That is worth giving don’t you think.  So how would you articulate your own particular value desired in words you write?  I will recapitulate my online romantic series elsewhere probably not, but I suppose the game is all the same at heart. At my ancient age of 59 on the 25th…romance hasn’t been all that I had hoped and wished and mostly due to my own mistakes.  I mean my reach found me  next to very powerful and interesting women. My feeling is that I just never felt like using them was right. My thought was that the moment I did something like that thereby corrupting the art of love into manipulation and there are worse ways to destroy love and they all amount to betrayal, hard cold sexual betrayal is one of the worse by far.  

Then there is the whole degradation we suffer by the free porn industry, but I digress.

In any story written, there has to be clear value in just the manner and how it is written and not just what is being written about. So what’s the story I want to share with you and just how do I plan to do it like I’ve never done it before.  A good novel ought to provide an inspiring view and story with enough detail so that the reader can put it together for themselves. Let new ideas be possibilities you suggest worth considering.  My ideas are on how to rage against the dying of the light, this my current issue now 5 years into a state of end stage renal failure. I just don’t want my life to be how little medicine has offered me in the way of healing. More than when my Father became ill with this disease for sure, yet still having a level of influence I simply cannot avoid.  People try being positive and some of them are actually quite beautful too. j

So develop a habit, be prepared, awake, alert and let’s see what happens.

Next: Get a grip on visuals, graphics, drawings, cartoons, photography, photoshop, design, web design, development, ... have fun though.

Thursday, September 07, 2017

Where Fools Rush In, Case against God Revisited

Nothing it seems is more persuasive or compelling than somebody preaching a "truth" which they have devoted their entire being to, even sacrificed their savings to, all in faith. Its that possibility in our listening that I find fascinating, but unfortunately or not immune to as well, lol. By dismissing God as fictional and irrelevant, I also get to bypass the satanic series as well. This leaves me with a lot of responsibility as to knowing whatever I do accomplish is exactly what I will get. Part of that work is an every increasing and expanding consciousness of my self as aligned with the Universe/Everything. And by that, I can command nature, and produce miracles like sudden spontaneous synchronicity which is all a mere function of my asking the wile mysterious chaos in me to respond.

And, there's a lot happening ... It's pure arrogance to think one knows or has the capacity to know "God." Then there's the whole "in his image" schtick which is another degree of arrogance, but from the context of inspiring connection building, nothing beats faith for bringing people together to love one another. I can't and won't argue against that. I just think its time we take the blinders off and wake up to our own innate capacity to achieve the same others do in faith, only free and empowered towards a future of our own making. Holding on to your faith means you'll continue constrained under the entire narrative's vision and teaching. By now, you've got to see the inherent confict which that involves, a struggle no longer constructive and clearly no longer appropriate.

Sunday, July 02, 2017

~ Feeling the Falling

A poem seems such a little effort in contrast feels good enough huh?

Feeling the Falling

Is predatory flight
to polarity
    a prayer
mostly prey
    just falling kind    
    Rare exceptions make angels
A compassionate feature hidden
    by only a few degrees of velocity
    they lift consciously to fly
    where words heart felt
   
Whisper possibilities within
    to a wind that ascends
    falling turns this chime 
         into reeds sublime
         a wind swept mind

Judging the irony - oh what the hell
    every close inspection
    reveals truth spoken to power
    relevant for unspoken and kind
    
In another, that looks chaotic
    works in progress 
    require a little more
        patient understanding with love
        scrutinize the party
            if you please


© 7/2/2017 rjduberg




 

         

Tuesday, May 09, 2017

Finding a Faith not Easy


 Dante Gabriel Rossetti

If one is pressed hard, 
it is so that one may find faith and become free. 
Our pasts are full of weak places, evasions, dishonesties, 
that we thought were buried and forgotten. 
But they have to come out. Sometimes it is very bitter. 
Now with this strong influence that is shining on us, 
all the flaws are appearing. Nothing can be hidden any more. 
Because everything has to be firm and solid under our work. 
So when we are hard-pressed, 
struggling with the consequences of the past, 
it is really proof that our work is strong and right. 
It means that we are being given a chance to go faster. 
If all the consequences of the past come to the surface 
it is so that we may face them 
and become free of them once and for all. 
And under great pressure 
one may find a faith one would never need at ease. 

~Rodney Collin 
The Theory of Conscious Harmony


Plans/Notes/Sketches

Can you stand in the fire and take the heat?

Sustainable design can be defined as appropriate participation in natural process; and appropriateness should be judged by the extent to which a certain design maintains the overall dynamic stability, resilience, flexibility, adaptability, or health of the system as a whole.  - Dr. Daniel Christian Wahl,

Quantum Computing - Building a machine like us…
- Machine feels like an alter to a deity.
- 2 mutually exclusive states at the same time available in quantum computing
- Cubits a point of nexus where two parallel universes connect
- Moore’s law, every year the number of cubits doubles
- increase of speed is beyond belief, orders of magnitudes.

Predictions - 3  - dangerous
- silicone valley unease regarding technological advancements.  Our talent is to immersed in building crap, stuff that is not important.
- 1st:  Within 5 years NASA will find Earth II, one of the QC machines will bear used to get there
- 2nd:  Gravitational Lensing
- 3rd: Humanity is on the cusp of the most important technological revolution to occur, the point where the machines will out pace us in every respect. (15 years)

Having a Happy Connected Life
- prevents addiction
- addiction is an adaptation to your environment
- Having purpose, bonds, relationsbips extends prevention
- The opposite of addiction is connection

"Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced." - by Soren Kierkegaard

Monday, May 08, 2017

A Better Perspective on Anger ~ DRAFT

Easily the best perspective to begin working on Anger. The way I see it ... until we come to a place inside where I choose whether I'm angry or not and enthusiastically enjoy that choice; in the meantime, I have found by not expressing it but rather re-channeling it into a positive and productive form is key. In order to tilt that playing field in my direction, I remind myself at every opportunity that my best performances include a significant percentage in which I was angry and found a way to use that level of energy to achieve something positive. Those possibilities are limited without a doubt, but isn't that the point? Maybe by doing this prelim step, there will be things you didn't notice before and which are far more important to you?

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Mental Illness Symptoms our President might have...

Certainly, those alleged symptoms could make sense as something else looking from another world view right? What does his ability to gaslight the media on a daily basis mean anyway. And, I'm still waiting for our nation's legal ethics eagles to rally themselves and impeach.

Something else to consider is the numerous reports of Trump in private setting and how the change of countenance which overtakes him is profoundly different and not narcissistic they say, hmmm? And ... I am also a devil's advocate, and think Trump is mentally ill as well, despite what I just said above.

He destroyed a third of our federal govt in less than 100 days. He's done more damage to the federal govt than any other individual has ever or ever could do. And, really, all we can do is breathe in deep, exhale calm waves back to the flux and open ourselves to the lesson being taught. What is that you might say? I don't know exactly. Give me some time, but for the moment there is present a stellar view into the a major imperfection in democracy, one that seems only to be growing larger. Will rational men still in power rally together and investigate the truth as well as punish anything treasonous they find.