Listening to a World Gone Mad

Life is toxic.  Quite a challenge to be on dialysis and score with a lady with the restrictions of the Coronavirus of 2020.  Really low on energy right now, my balance is way off.  What else is there to do though. Peace, love, rj

TERROR VAULT Part 3 | Mad Moments & Ultimate Wipeouts!

These waves defy normal physics, and the dudes that surf them are not human.

Integral Correspondence with Pierre on Ken's Board

Pierre had asked whether to column or not to column in an homage of sorts to where he felt at the moment embodied Hamlet's statement.  And I do discuss...

There's a lot of missing context here I don't have time to add except say once again, I lost the final product which was like a fourth revision.  Revisions are hot, and I just want fucking fart my brain out my ass when that happens.  ha ha

Hey Pierre, so am I to take your definition of teachings or my definition, both contain a rare set called esoteric which is by definition hidden, not so much secret and not so much hidden either. Because, those aren’t the only dimensions of possibility defining teaching, although together they do form a rather close knitted knot. I would add while this was how I first thought about things I knew which were hardly any of the above pointing I might add to a further complication to the complexes already arising, lol. OK … today I found myself amazed how despite the factual differences of value one finds among teaching, the rarest and still most valuable was itself paradox. I say that in the sense repeatedly day in and day out discovering or recognizing but in any event distinguishing and making knowledge as in a cognitive map of that apperception. The paradox I claim has to do with repeating this rarest of rare views of value, soul value, purpose of being, answer to the mystery of being and life (there will be a pop quiz at the end of this to see if you were listening or not). The paradox isn’t so much to do with the fact as it has to do with the limits of thinking and its mechanical routing through the limit of everything finite. 

It’s an odd station along the evolutionary path of the mind. More of stairway in the which ego stumbles and dies trying be what it cannot, with the struggle and death of the ego in its attempt to be 2 at once a hero. It’s a kind of double whammy when you consider the processes one has to loop through just to get to the beginning. As souls, our existence really can be seen as bubbles of light rising from an oceanic floor, where at the surface all things become clear as it were. 

Now if you haven’t gotten the paradoxes lining up here, I can offer you more, perhaps on the side of the simplistic and where the rubber meets the road? It behooves any student or shall we say student candidate to what? See, there’s already any number of lists of prerequisites yeah. The path to any esoteric teaching is in plain sight and walked across or by everyday. 

One of the unspoken future values that must be recognized is the need here for some kind higher adaptive AI that will keep some hyper super ethical approach to principled acts and reports (memory). There’s to much fashionistic focus that keeps everyone who stares at it blind. The value needing preservation at all costs is our technological basis having a preserved anchor into the POSSIBILITY that our past actually represents. I mean and there is plenty of work to do here, my suggestion is to invest highly in teams of higher order communities of conscious peope having both the wisdom of their founders plus the added value their conscious community is tasked to and represents. 

One classroom in a whole universe of such teaching platforms I say ought to be known as discovery. Discovery is my cosmic inbasket, lol. Anyway … There’s a divine blueprint, not saying I’m in possession of, because as I said, I’m having it dropped again and again in my you know what every day … Now, to answer your question…keep in mind that I filter everything through a linguistic analysis, removing as much noise as can be rachetted out of common sense (not here to waste time mind you). Then fiddle with the internal structures of thought present to reach and rank the signal for efficacy. This is perhaps my favorite field of fashion, founded in linguistics but still stuck back there. I’m sure you have your own history here where growing up becomes else entirely? LOL OK, I was going to say there’s just no money in it, yet. But that would have been my vanity getting away with another one 

So, undoubtedly I the ranking will be different than what I would put as the best and worst possible … kind of dark hole. The point is that doing just that alone (measuring efficacy or authentic ness, genuine) already has me well … everything impresses others usually as an interpretation based upon belief. That is not how to think. It remains part of the border between cognition and language and is the sole domain of thought. The memetic process of stiching together the higher and the lower, symbolizes the efficacy of the cosmos which is ours to represent alone. 

Why humanity has yet to establish higher schools of knowledge in the public, points to the nature of what is called esoteric. It’s a misleading term for me tho since nothing is actually hidden. It just remains necessary for man and women to be in a school in order for such knowledge that can be accessed to have any actual value. One day that’ll change, but for now, esoteric includes some this insight which recognizes the higher value such schools present for the benefit of serious students. What I just shared with you is considered esoteric, only because in order to understand it and benefit from that value a certain very rare training is required. Most is self referring still but the blindness and paradoxes are now resolved. What’s hidden isn’t really knowledge at all, just because some smuck figures he’s going to cash in on his personal interpretation, doesn’t not dismiss the fact of what is being offered being yet another interpretation. Where do the interpretations stop you ask right? I’m saying any secret knowledge one wants to have, it’s that original desire to know truth enlightened the OG remark and distinction of which we felt none higher or more important which is going to be the source of such a quest’s erfficacy in terms of knowledge. Here the knowledge of the STICH between higher and lower as a linguistic articulation and spoken and listened to with love in the heart. There is connection, the truth of one with no second. But … I need to run on my friend, hope this ravings if anything give you some calm and better yet some amusement and humor. 

To close, where this distinction you call secret exists (grok grok grok) outside I guess where your structures of consciousness don’t go tho or don’t exist. That was cofusing I’m sorry. In order to ask this question and be able to benefit from the ensuing conversation you need a school. I can’t think of better way to look at how to answer the but once again there’s the paradox … and you apt to get lost in that loop where what you see is both there and not there. Here, I’m saying in a CONSCIOUS school, such a question has value and is appropriate for a teaching conversation of which the school has as its purpose to produce. 

There are much better questions tto ask except they remain or will remain hidden or secret, not because I say so or has there ever been an authority who could. Well .. wouldn’t you like to know the nature or essence of the source of structiure itself? That kind of question has no value except as shared in quest and taught to a very select group of a very large group of committed supportive students. 

And, in honor of your spirit Pierre, I brought with me a poem written by C, not sure who C is. excerpted from from a digital newsletter called The Academy of European Arts and Culture.

In This Time…

Posted: 21 Sep 2020 05:39 AM PDT

In this time I feel we have become more

“Unified” in lightness as a Cosmos, a School.

Our soul’s join and quiver

like strings kissing the thin skins of our

confines within this realm,

reaching into a higher atmosphere

and understanding

our divine responsibility towards Love.

Let us float together today in this light.

~C

Remember that pop quiz I promised you…well, it was over having universal knowledge dropped off daily in my inbasket, with me somehow blinded by it only to rediscover brand new the next day. There’s both mystery and clue in there and my exit now gotta run. Cheers, rj

A Reply to a Russian Beauty's question about Love

I think I am love not that I am IN love, and thus everything I do, say, or create, is the embodiment of love.  To try and construct an idea of love, only removes one from the experience and power that being in love and the embodiment of love is or rather can be in the mind and views of a truly conscious and practicing lover.  All manner of attempts at revealing the essence of love through words has and continues to be made poetically and through a cascading roar of being the substance of which is pure love.  Love is multidimensional in its extension, perception, awareness, energetics, and sexual yoga.  

Only our minds prefer to operate in a linear fashion because such thinking never goes beyond that style of thought or its limits, which do not approach love but only intellectual linear sketches and explanations which again have linearity as their essence, much like a menu is a linear list of loving variations (one hopes) on nutritious dishes of all manner and sort. That is not love but it is essential to man's physicality and relevant possibilities, to build new systems in a continuously evolving technological world.  

The context and basis for such associative and linear thinking is easily reduced to dualistic views and dichotomies with the overriding need to be right at all costs, a mechanical way of being with severely limited possibilities.  Love embraces, includes, transcends, procreates, integrates, as well as creates new platforms and possibilities of technology but always in doing so love makes it fun and an adventure with no particular or essential need to be right about anything only our need to be with what is remains upon the glassy surface of humanity's ocean of Being.

Advice to my fellow dialysis patient in pain...

Doesn't get any more real than this

I can so feel your painful upset. I'm only on my 8th year of dialysis. This morning I arrived at the clinic and was told water hadn't been tested yet and there was anywhere from a 1 to 1.5 hour wait. The way I take in fluid demands that I have dialysis 4 x a week, and with that I'm barely keeping up. Not to be allowed 4 hours was going to be a major upheaval, nothing compared to yours of course, but the clinic dietitian a woman I've known for some time and trust said, I could work it out with the nurse, that if I really needed the full treatment I could probably get it. Once in the chair, a nurse I'm only acquainted with and I get into it because she says there is no Flex possible. 

Things can quickly spiral out of control when we're upset over bad/negative/shocking news, mostly because our lives hang in the balance. All I can say is that we've all bought a piece of a certain tragic greek mythological cake and each piece will finish digesting on its own time table. The best we can do is to keep pushing that rock up the hill, chewing out cake, assisting the digestive process come hell or high water. And, the high road is putting everything in the most positive light possible. Ease your pain don't compound it. Your either going to come through this by hook or crook or not. The prize is in the traveling not the destination.

Draft of First Article for EV Blog -

I could be playing pinball.  It would be the best opportunity for it, AND YET, here I am writing an aritcle for a phantom blog dedicated to an Evolutionary Think Tank based on Integral Theory.  This blog is such a GOOD idea, AND YET; has yet to see the light of day. My vision for it is a portal through which we the collective of the EV Think Tank can disseminate the refined and synthesized wisdom missing form public narratives that will provide the necessary social support for tailoring the next phase of development so that  it Boldly demonstrates the application of the main evolutionary principle in Interal Theory, which is, Include & Transcend,

The process has begun tearing down and raising structures today that no longer support their inhabitants.  It is enough to see the "spttg" event is an event we Should just walk away. And this endeth today's demonstration of the over-reach today intellectually of various domentic issues aired on air over the weekend talk shows mostly.

Alright then, I'll let you go for now.

xox Robert, namaste

The Coronavirus Pandemic

More posts being made pointing to very profound issues to lead me to copy them there for posterity.

Memes, Conflation, Truth, Paradigmatics

Key Concepts
Excerpted from a PKD FBook post 5/21

 Shanti Prema Hudes You definitely got a narrative going there.  Not wanting to intrude here, but I'm finding this conversation (with?) really fascinating about value judgements and personal boundaries and methods of accessing real or true data I'm interested in building some expertise of my own or not, or maybe I'm just curious.  But there are conspiracy theories and science and a whole gradient mix in-between.

Today, the dissonance has never been greater without the personal commitment to trust but verify. Science is the only modality in which precise repeatable outcomes can be produced. Thus, when you hear anything hearsay, like Trump's massive businesses and his cadre of medical and political and financial advisors, advising him, the fact is quite the opposite. Yeah, all of those 100s of friends he lost on 911. A complete fabrication.

 The developmental stage of evolution, called integral by Ken Wilber, is a level of consciousness which perceives the cosmos as holoarchical.  Another way of saying this is to say or perceive the cosmos as consisting of holons within holons.  This is not a conflation but a recognition of fact.  Until facts and accurate empirical data form the basis for conversation, there being an ongoing acknowledgement of "truthiness", of course there will be push back against everything seen as strange and/or a threat.  Now there's a conflation waiting to happen, lol.

  I'm amazed at how little people get the potato-potaaaato meme distinction. And to say a meme is a generalization is full stop reductionism.  The really interesting facts regarding memes has to with those generalizations, their lives (they all have beginnings and ends, although we're getting ready to burst that intellectual bubble to), relationships with cultural outcomes and horizons, and the anxiety of influence (and the complete waste it creates in society, such as Trumps National Mexican Wall.

 Any action coming from a less than integral level of consciousness will operate a meme-function designed push back and resist standing on fundamentals of boundary making and wall building.  Personal memes designed to separate and lead on into a herd mentality and Corporate memes designed to incorporate the world.  Then integral memes which are psychoactive and influence one in letting go of all beliefs that don't support love, healing, sharing, ascension in its myriad expressions.  Cheers, rj

Social DistanceS

This is the era of the CoronaVirus CoVid19. 

The beautiful IB Pier is empty because its closed so that there won't be any congregating which is how the virus is transmitted the quickest.  My "life" is still complicated by Sleep Apnea and my ERSF. I somehow experienced a spontaneous self healing regarding my heart.  It's now back to a normal function after failing for over 20 years???  I've fostered supportive energetic healing from friends besides my own more concentrated conscious healing energy on my life.  

It will be hard repopulating that SOCIAL DISTANCE.

Journal - Looking at the Pandemic Covid19

Computing Power doubles every year, an exponential growth.  Step 30 is 1 Billion
Result:  Nano machines that could heal the body of pathogens
Even later:  nano Machines that can go inside the cells healing them, setting our age
Talk of future envisioned ...

Learning to swipe with pop memes is my ideology. The practice will be a little harder to incorporate. In this age of pandeminic threat, if I find an opportunity to turn that vector towards balance and peace, I will work to keep harm at bay.

~Enjoy Your Commitments

Enjoy your commitments.

If they suck, find
  new possibilities to
      commit to.

If you find none
   or only poverty of passivity
      a fuller education is required.

Not the solutions of persuasion
   stories of salvation
      miraculous fantasies.
   
Siren's songs and religions, then
   Today, radical rebels of the spirit
      push our culture to the brink

Remember an earlier time of dreaming
   And once uncovered begin building
      what you forget, self-remembering.

rjduberg, 2020

Another Angle on Self-Remembering

In a response to Marci at Evolutionary Dynamics, I wrote the following which I realized half way through that it was based on SELF-REMEMBERING and is the reason I'm including it in this blog.

LOL, It's a glass half full period is it?  I was just reminded of the lethality of nicotene, either by tobacco or vape.  I still have a friend who smokes but I won't allow it in my space, however; I have that conversation about whether I'm still enabling hin to KILL HIMSELF.  Why people cannot break out of whatever circular logic as you describe with plain FACTS not only mystifies me but makes me want to pound head against wall, cause it might not be so painful as this.Everything positive in my life except my wonderful mother has come about through education.  I second the whole theory regarding the danger of division in which the opposite is seen as some kind of threat instead of a shadow aspect of a positive proposition.


Your fait accompli that God will sort it all out is the ultimate bypass isn't it?  Anytime we defer clarity from this moment because we cannot endure the suffering it inevitably brings with it is when your litany of bypasses finds expression.  But tell me what do you replace this NEED we have, that we have grown up endoctrinated in, to have someone fix us?

My very question expresses its overwhelming presence and pressure on our little selves.


FACT is we are not destroyed however.  I like to use the word bypass because it connotes a lost opportunity more than anything.
FACT  Knowing that I don't know is a far more empowering place to be than confused and not knowing that I don't know.


Still, if followed up with a bypass, that always puts our possibilities in reset mode.  Somewhere, somehow we have to be able to take charge of remembering our predicament enough to take that context out into the world.  Thanks for the engaging chat here sister. It is bizarre though with a little examination on how the most popular walk on the talk of God is to destroy thy neighbor or at a minimum put her in somekind of cage of one kind or another.  Which leads me to the positive half full measure in which we do have the possibility of evolution in moments of self-transcendence when we embrace and absolve our other by conscious creative open-heartedness which brings all of one's attention into the timeless now.  The moment we fail to remember this, that opens the half empty door of awful.


Our bodhisattvas desire to transform and enlighten the masses from such ignorance, and for all the glory of that ambition, I have watched you all fail for decades now. Even new communities based on sustainability will fail without a more structured basis formed to promote conscious evolution in its basic education.

Deida said, "Freefalling in the Mystery is sexy if you are working for something huge, greater than yourself."  I suppose this points to why these "cults" get so much traction from the masses, sex sells.

Evolutionary Dynamics

Wilber's
Evolutionary Dynamics

Evolutionary Dynamics, and post modernity ... Ken Wilber is delivering via his own material and the contributions of many others.  Here we consider the cognitive line of development and the Self line.  Cognitive is the talk and self is the walk.  Cognitive is usually a stage or two ahead of the self line.  Being at integral cognitively and their self or actual center is at traditional or modern or postmodern.

Making ourselves as integral as possible.  Integrating all four quadrants.  For example those at green make attempts without hierarchies of any kind.  They miss the opportunity.

This meta-theory by Wilber has been the frame of reference I've been working on for being as of late.  The how is the focus of growth ... leveling up.

Best Prime Rib Deal in San Diego

Prime Rib at IB Forum looks like this consistently week to week.  Really handsome step with a fully loaded potato.  Are you salivating yet?  The dinner comes along with a very generous mixed green salad with your choice of dressing.  And as well there are some really tasty slices of oven crispy garlic bread which melts in your mouth.  For the price, and I've been around the county looking for a deal and food to beat this one.  You can't beat it.

Clear Insight by Einstein

We are slowed down sound and light waves,

a walking bundle of frequencies tuned into the cosmos.

We are souls dressed up in sacred biochemical garments 

and our bodies are the instruments 

through which our souls play their music.

~Albert Einstein

~I Love the Analogy

I love the analogy of the breath, 

like the sea to the shore moment by moment. 

We can observe what is behind the breath what is looking, 

not with the eyes as Blake said. 

But through the eyes. 

Changing pace, 

spending time with students is a release like the sea teaches. 

Allowing the water to run deep 

and wash out what is not needed, 

to remind us that each second is a cleansing, 

an opening, 

a release an end and a beginning. 

~C

Mary Oliver Poem

The Real Prayers Are Not the Words,

But the Attention tht Comes First

The little hawk leaned sideways and, tilted,

rode the wind. Its eye at this distance looked

like green glass; its feet were the color 

of butter. Speed, obviously, was joy. But

then, so was the sudden, slow circle it carved 

into the sightly silvery air, and the 

squaring of its shoulders, and the pulling into

itself the long, sharp-edged wings, and the 

fall into the grass where it tussled a moment,

like a bundle of brown leaves, and then, again,

lifted itself into the air, that butter-color

clenched in order to hold a small, still

body, and it few off as my mind sang out oh

all that loose, blue rink of sky, where does 

it go to, and why? 

~Art Curation * Draft in progress

The idea of the successful PROBE.
    This means ending up on the other side.
    How does one enter THAT zone?
Beginner rules sharpen focus.
Specific Standards matter over time.

There is work involved in unfolding
   the precise exchange with technique
   and the Technological Innovation
Realized as a better platform, ultimately;

*Draft

© 1//2019 rjduberg 

Small Photo Tour of the USS Roosevelt

~ The Sound Made by Trump a Thump

 The Sound of Impeachment
 *coming to a country near you today!

There's a sound made by Trump
   As he backs up his hump (around)
      in the WH these days.

The Beep Beep isn't pretty buy needy.
   So we all suffer with his fakiness
       Can we please impeach him now?

Stop (t)his noise now!

© 11//2019 rjduberg