Saying it without saying it

Saying it without saying it

One example of this would be the state of breathlessness associated with part of my experience with wise and beautiful women. There's no saying that only breathing it.

Struggle of Ascension

Wrestling with an Angel

I love this painting by Rembrandt. I often feel this way and the knowledge that others do as well and that this may not be due to my defective self is something of a validation.

What though is this impulse to resist higher law and conscious influence? I struggle with it even as I am fully aware of its divinity and authority.

This struggle is nothing more than my egoism asserting itself before existence itself, even when it doesn't exist itself.

We would do well to invent a more illuminating narrative in our psychology, one which doesn't make things or conjure things up to explain the very conflicted and chaotic impulses and behavior which men and women express.

Ramblin' Rosie Mom


How often does your feeling resemble a tornado? In the positive sense of being swept up in a revolving twirling wind of information. Part of this dynamic flux has to do with realizing the only thing preventing us from anything in life is a negative belief. Letting someone declare it for you is another lame way as well. I should say rather that having any negative energy in opposition to your desire around is the quickest sabatoge I know of and the easiest way to not fulfill your desire.

Lately, I guess I've been feeling a lot better because I've seen a lot of shift in my attitude. I know I'm feeling good if I become absorbed in revelerie about a long ago left behind coming of age. Such indelible moments and memories, the happiest I've ever been, even though I was totally ignorant of who I really was.

Alright then, Gestalt Theory won the day again. Fritz Perls was its founder and it continues to be a key piece of knowlege shared between many different disiplines.

Until one begins to perceive silence as the most powerful communication of all, they will not have the ability to see enough to know they're in trouble. Knowing, or getting in touch with as some now say something truthfully doesn't change anything. And the usual ordinary way we exercise our will towards some specific ends is ass backwards and false anyhow.

There is a real solid gold nugget to be found in this process dig, which is when you can divide your attention between the material world and conscious energetic world. If you do that, I don't think there is anything else as powerful for producing a breakthrough into higher consciousness.

Will Power

In order to go with gusto
where the power of will, will
make a difference now
One has to remember
to set the polarity for all
both the blind and seeing
From the material need
one includes the negation
and along with that, arises
the opposite, and a snickers.

The one thing will will not
yet, in respect to chocolate
caramel bite sized candy
called Risens ~ yum yum.

2013 rj

What ENTITLEMENT between people means?


I guess it's no surprise when my first recollection here was a beginning observation regarding how people are unconsciously always viewing and acting in life TO LOOK GOOD. Imagine the permutations on that formula. I don't know that I understand what exactly you meant by superior. IS it his thinking he's superior when he's not, claiming he's superior, acting superior, a superior idiot, LOL - It all seems to reflect our need to LOOK GOOD, by some personal standard mostly a legacy of the culture we grew up in.

But I mean it's one of those things that need an anchor or at least anecdotal reference for them to really work in communicating or relating, for that matter.

Don't forget that in any conflict we have with another, a portion of our commuication is projection, and it is precisely this portion of our communication which is the source of our feeling conflicted at that moment.

The entire story though, if I get you well enough, is what? A displeasure with the way men cope with you as a female? Your drawing a picture which has been drawn over and over throughout time. It does mean anything except that the LINES OF YOUR COMMUNICATION are shewed. The rest your making up about it. The question I think trumps this one is how do these LINES become skewed, which to me seems like a question about a blindness we have or something we're seemingly unaware of.

Given that I don't have a quick answer for that I'll stop here, except to say that one of the LINES that I have found skewing from time to time and at least enough times that the point of lapse became clear to a degree that I can report it fair and succinctly as HUMOR. We often lose our humor, forget about it's value, but basically stop using it when it is really essential to our communication with others being fulfilling, revealing, supporting, encouraging, empowering, and well-received.

I definitely used to take myself a little bit to seriously. It does help to laugh at oneself. If I think of anymore I'll add them...

A place to address one's soul ...

You have to be able to have it, though you often fail to do this. The reason is inner chaos fragmenting your basic integrity as a person. I'm still striving for balance I guess, beginning with some basic alignments. Now there's a hot therapy, re: Alignments.

The central idea would be that balanced moves along with you as your wheel in time goes around, it's position however remaining in the center of the wheel, turning and thus moving along but otherwise staying unchanged along the x,y.

Balance will continue to appear the same at the wheels edge until that day you choose to let this go for something else? Recommend a proactive approach so one doesn't lapse into a culdesac and get stuck.

Stuck is different than having a balance on x,y. Stuck is stuck. LOL

Order and Chaos

I can only emphasize the importance of one's intent (or wish) in the matter. To the degree that you can be both the wish and what is NOT, is the degree to which you can realize your self as source in life.

Life is a movement and LOL, looking around one can see the chaos of movement everywhere yes? For oneself, this is no different for most, their consciousness is a web of oppositional even diametrically opposed desires, impulses, conditionings, etc.

The most important question in this is then what shall be the organizing principle to all of this? What will be the primary wish behind and around which all other wishes order themselves and organize?

Why put it like this? Well, if you actually look, you may see, for yourself. And, what could be more important than that?

Where you don't expect to find it

Charisma, you see it most among your friends. An intense form of contact which always appears as a magnetic attraction, based on two positives, exchanging views and ideas about a double negative they are tugging at against each other.

It's the expansion afterwards full of mystery and divine grace, you shift into Heavy Memory Modes. Sounds like a great blog title or band even.

and so on...

Extending It

Advaita Vedanta is a song in my heart, silent and soulful, feeling like gravity to a mind out of control, looking like nothing I have ever seen nor hope to, yet still the bell of mystery, claiming sovereignty over all.

Dobson, Beyond Space and Time

I love his argument and logic formulating the observation that without particles there would be no fields and without fields there would be no particles. Followed by the observation that it becomes impossible to define any quantity referred to in our physics. Unable to make any positive statements about the reality underlying our physics it is still possible to note it by negation. He leaps from space time to the following negatives: changeless, infinite, undivided. This frames our problem of how this underlying reality shows up or occurs to us as changing, finite, and divided?

He calls this causation by apparition! LOL

Thus mistaking the changeless, infinite, and undivided for something else shows up for us as the changing, finite, and divided because there is nothing else. Brilliant! Eh?

Gravity and electricity are the levels to seeing the infinite but mistaking it. Space now becomes not that which separates the many but that which separates the One.

Have you experienced Non-duality?

Any interpretation of experience is not it. Ultimately, to experience non-duality is to create it, but not in the normal sense of naming or constructing. It is create the possibility of being conscious of consciousness, and if one's desire is sincere enough, entering into and being transformed by that space of possibility of being.

To simply be or abide as consciousness is beyond most for a couple of reasons. (1) Any attempt to achieve this state or reach it annilhates the possibility (2) All definitions, linguistic discourse, symbology, recognition, identification … require the use of dichotic thought. Thus, we're speaking of a new kind of desire which transcends the ordinary mind. A desire born from the mind of nothing or no-self. One does not make sense of such a state or desire. One can only desire it.

Non-duality exists where our being simply is what it is (unstated and undifferentiated), and this can be made distinct from duality and language only indirectly by mostly speaking of what is NOT non-duality (basically anything and everything you can point at, in general). However, if you can fathom the endless unfolding process of being in its gross and physical expression and then embrace what the source of that manifest possibility is, you will be getting warm .

Enlightened Sadness

I think anyone elevated to a point where they're sensitive and capable of verifying the truth, finds a profound sadness to this level of consciousness. It is a consciousness of reality as void - empty and meaningless. People grow up with diverse points of view and beliefs about everything under the sun. Those who enter a spiritual path in order to find the truth will eventually verify it for themselves and annihilate the subjective realm of their minds. Part of this egocentrism from which all subjectivism is expressed, are beliefs associated with happiness, fulfillment, success, entitlement, honor, virtue, hope, even justice. With the fullest conscious verification of reality being void of all that subjectivism, there is this profound loss which is the bell ringing just beyond the veil that they have arrived. What that sadness represents is the point to this level of awareness, which is to totally let go.

Those who succeed in this, transform their ability to verify the truth into a proactive choice. And their verifications become creative manifestations of reality vs. confirmations of the void they sought in their own egocentric subjectivism. This isn't automatic and may require much further work to find and verify the various principles of consciousness leading to further ascending notes in their evolution, but their skill of discernment becomes powerfully critical and subtle in its sensitivity and direct perceptual understanding regarding reality vs what is ordinarily a function of imagination and belief.

On the Flip Side...

What I can tell you is that considering others as in externally to oneself, continues to be a key not only in the Fourth Way but in my own reflection on its personal effects for me ripened over a long period of time. While it is not always at the forefront of my conscious awareness ... I'm so tired of the prescription ... proscription prescription whatever. All I'm saying always depends on and leans against what I don't say. It's the zen koan all over again. If Kutschner plays Steve Jobs in a film being talked about now about Jobs life ... even more off the hook is my medical view right now OR what precedes illness is sometimes just as sick or worse. This factor which is impacting my daily life in a big way doesn't hurt at all for it perhaps being one of the biggest downsides of life as I see. That and sleeping too long or otherwise blocking your girlfriend's own nap time.

I rediscovered the joy of higher consciousenss. It too has a downside, besides the progressive sorrow for risks that cannot be avoided but which have a high probability of changing life's vectors in a significant way. This happens in combination though, with positive upticks multi-dimentsionally.

I'm thinking Apple is in error with its Macbook Pro's ergonomics - Specifically, the edge that feels more like a dull blade against my hands and wrists. It is near the top of vulnerable postures and stress points on my body which if active too long always bark loudly when its time for me to shift my POV.

This User Interace could stand multiple upgrades, and ...

All I'm saying is ... stop the shooting on public ground putting civilians at big risk.

I cannot seem to wake up today. I soooo want to go back to bed. It's been like that all day.

Bringing Forth one's life is never going to be easy, though because the will wavers through time, how you create a perspective about that involes the idea of higher order functioning in defining who and what a human being is and means. Why is that important? You'd be amazed how rare our perspectives even have this minor level of function articulated in them.

The main point is how to remember the polarization in the flow. The flow in general represents both sides of the spectrum and because the zero point is always moving the limit rises to the surface connecting the discrete series into one sequence. Sometimes the bear eats you, and sometimes you eat the bear.

My questions always become painful when i write, why is that? Despite that pain, I still love to write as well as how it makes me feel as a consequence extending a ways into the future, usually, as well.

Theme of an Ocean

A cold desolate beach
Romantic memory laden
Shamelessly irrisistable 
dealing on heat changed
A lot - depending on the light.

All the rough shod traveling
Comes to an end here, still
Alone with Imperial Beach
When I'm ill at best, quiet.

Unchangingly calm & clear
Star light sees stardust
Looking at us rabble rouses
A curiosity of mysteries
And a spectacular attitude.

Happiness

There are a lot of different stories out there, narratives which define and express who we are. Some promote happiness, others are mum; but the story does not evoke or produce the reality every person longs for since birth. And until a man decides to free himself and choose wisely what his story says, these narratives are insidious in the way they entrap and enslave men in what has been the only hell I've ever seen. What could be worse, than cut off, spun out, and oblivious to one's possibilities to ascend and evolve happy? So, that said, I want to take a stab at this idea of the highest state we are forever pursuing whether we acknowledge it or know it, but would be happy to if the idea were real and realizable. Moving mountains was never a concern when man's mind is made up and then dies.

The primary problem is being connected consciously to a purpose larger than oneself. Good ideas, wisely understood and followed, nevertheless is not alive, and our aliveness demands a transcendent exchange to being in relationship to all that possibility which exists as yet a mystery for us.

Consciously knowing this is the proper place to start, and then the real test begins as we grind out a space of vision in which the opportunity may finally arise such that we have enough time and energy to connect before the moment expires.

In fairness to wisdom's principle of balance and harmony, its necessary to say that the process includes failure which one experiences as perhaps the epitome of personal hell, and at best a return to darkness. No fun, and often the precursor to a man's relapse and slip back into a state of sleep.

The Beauty of the Mind

...is its inherent ability to partition experience, codify, and language it, resulting in possibilities one imagines despite all opposition. C-All for our potential of conscious evolution, conscious effort, conscious suffering, and conscious ascension. There is joy in recognizing that seed in one's field of awareness for what and how it is the best feature of our being but paradoxically the beauty of the mind as our personal warden whose capacity to keep us asleep is both real and an illusion. Is it our addiction to the dreams which clouds the way above? How can we step outside of the domain to prepare a higher integral including what's missing, leaving nothing out?

Sea of Unity

A friend shared an old poem of mine with me today and I daresay it deserves to be republished and revisited as an homage to how deep and hot love can ignite in the heart.

Sea of Unity

The sea bequeaths thee
eternity beseems the one.

The yearn of my concern
watches time undone.

Knowing the grand expansion
braves dark dawning sun.

Yet would I find happy a flame
in the cavern of your love.

Even tho I suffer my darling
blessed is my enduring heart.

Our bonfire beats a quickening light
Into spirit’s captivating shine.

Mating the one transcends the two
living as the sea of unity.

© R.J. Duberg , 2004

Miraculous Endpoint

We have greater possibilities than we ever succeed in revealing
Every day, we can choose to renew ourselves in divine direction.
It's one of the most profound phases and transitions we confront.
Accepting external opinions as directions, available flows missed
denying mind the the latitude of time compression for what's best.

Outcomes and bringing forth the human condition for its evolution
Seems dependent on our response and choice of best crossroads.
For the best paths of ascending  open with choice to be conscious
with skills of translation to step up or down any stair communicated
willing a higher power the opportunity to grace a world, miraculous.

© 2/2012 rjduberg

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A Look from da Utterside: 

An Inv for Recipient Status

I have certainly been given enough energy the last two days, enough to activate some very cold and unused literary talent. Can't tell you what might be at the source of this uptick in my wellness mission. Probably had something to do with some extra money floating around in my accounting. It is still a very discomforting experience for me to check into my physical beingness, moree specifically the instinctual part of the whole physical level of existence to which also defies the greater effort to categorize ourselves properly that such disagreements become settled and past.

Back to this uptick of mine. I have spent many hours the last two dqys writing for the first time in maybe 2 months with a few rare exceptions. Anyway ... it may simply wishful thinking on my part. As it is, I've lost confidence in this specific octave and have no immediate plans to do anything other than spend some quality time with a certain feminine octave instead. One of these days anyway ...