Thursday, June 19, 2014

On Desire

I think its important to be able to discriminate between one's desires understanding the boundary between the lower and the higher. The following text was just recently published by a friend of mine today, Lee van Laer. He puts this in perspective for me, maybe for you too?

"Ordinarily, I am always measuring myself by my desire; and my desire is always to somehow to allow myself to fall short.

What there is a need for is to go one step past what I want to do, which is almost always selfish in one way or another. This needs to be looked at; it's so habitual, really, that I rarely notice it. I take my selfishness for granted; and that marks the line where hell's property begins.

There is a satisfaction in the fulfillment of duty. I have been brought to this planet to learn how to take one step past what I want, into what is good for others. It's this service that counts.

I'm tempted to live in a secret, personal space. It has many comforts; and many things that help me are imparted there. But the intention of inner work is to bring me into relationship, first with myself, of course — but then, always, with the outer, into which I ought to bring a little of the light I am sent."

There is another angle about this which has to do not with falling short, but fulfilling a promise (duty), but also once again taking it one step further. In committing oneself to producing more than what is asked of oneself, one consciously creates a dimension of freedom in which in the process of making an exchange one's conscious awareness operates creatively which would otherwise not be subject to that higher state and challenging tension.

Sunday, June 08, 2014

Where is Heaven?

In the vein of christianity, we are introduced to a paradise that exists for us in the afterlife. Not really of particular interest or value for a 10 year old, whose own personal paradise was in the process of coming completely apart with the advent of Dad's PKD and ESRF. And over the years, no one has ever given any kind of satisfying remark or answer to the question of Heaven.

To begin with, Christ upset the apple cart when he said the Kingdom of Heaven is within us. The possibilities as I see them are that he must be referring to the real and active contact between myself and higher consciousness. Clearly, this connection exists and happens within because no where in the external world have I ever seen an entry or doorway marked Heaven or God.

So then within ... so far its only been during short periods of higher awakening, when my being was overwhelmed by presence that I have been given any clue to what I want more than anything else in the world and that is to have a conscious connection with Christ, to speak to him and with him face to face. Everytime I find myself reverberating with the disappearance of time, quiet, breathing, listening to my heart beat in my ears, the high pitched hiss of my mind like the background radiation behind the Universe's Big Bang, there is at least another moment of equipoise, a juicyness to abiding in the moment that is beyond refreshing and ultra seductive having the power to immediately quash and quell any and all reminders to duty in the business world of man.

We'll see just how much impact took place for those attenting this morning in the men's locker room in cyberville.

Answer to Jivana's question regarding the difference between male and female discussions

RE: Jivana's ... "If anyone is wondering why I ask this, I think there may be some interesting subtleties revealed about the difference in the energetics of mind driven dialogs, and feeling driven ones. Just maybe..Any thoughts about that Robert?" Well to start with, I think I just crapped my pants, LOL. Sheezuz Jivana ... does the power of your being know NO boundaries? Wow ... such a question. You know it's been a very long time since I've received such a important and powerful invitiation like this that nearly blew my noggin off. Bare with me while struggle to regain my calm and breath. 

You know, I mean to answer your question, I can't think of a greater example than what just happpened. Maybe you'd need to be here next to me to observe the distinction between being driven mentally(intelletually) in contrast to getting driven and feeling it. For sure, discussion between men rarely include silent pauses allowing a person to process felt sensation as a natural part of the discussion. I'm not saying that men don't still do this but they do not share it and they certainly don't draw attention to it. 

This brings us to what to make of the possibiity for men to properly engage their femiinity in the felt sense in discussion and relationship, and how to support it for the natural soulful liberty it affords one's being. I can imagine what is going through the minds of those men reading my words right now who make up the bulk of typical male interactiveness which could be characterized as competitive, and emotionally immature to some degree with almost every single man. Compared with women, where their discussion is punctuated continuously with certain sometimes infintesimal pauses in which focus is shifted entirely on the heart with the support and full appreciation of those women listeners present. Masculine energy does not curl up in a cuddling circle. It's potential was found in being unbreakable, unstoppable, overpowering, and noble. That's a historical perspective however I don't see much that has changed. The impulse still remains, untrained, unconscious, undifferentiated and not sublimated. The obvious results of such concentrations of masculine vs feminine energetically in discussion groups can be worked out along the characteristic dimensions as I have begun to suggest.
Part of what remains to be cleared before we evolve sexualpolitcally has to do with expectations. It's hard to imagine what precepitious condition could account for men anticipating a felt meaningful sense from his compadrades in the splitsecond pause required for the heart to breath and speak. The best I've encounterd so far in terms of an overt acknowledgement indicating that a friend of mine had "GOTTEN" a felt sense loud enough to say something about it was nevertheless constrained by a competitive context and a visual orientation. Given the modality expectation you can see how his statement, "Look at him, you can see the wheels turning inside his head." represents those cognitive channels. 

The only suggestion in support of Jivana's issue here for men would be to quietly focus over the next few days in your conversations with other men on your heart and the degree of energetic harmony being radiated within it as well as between your heart and the other's. Some of you may find this a rather impossible request, as you simply return to your dualistic rationalizations in progress. 

I do the best I can at keeping myself exposed to feminine energy and beingness because I have yet to come to any satisfactory balance within myself on this issue, but I hope I have been of some help and provided a little clarity for Jivana's issue and for the benefit of the men she is addressing.

Friday, June 06, 2014

Relating Religion to Spirtuality

There is always some extraordinary figure/teacher at the beginning of all religions. I have not studied this to be sure but I would hazard a guess that none of those teachers had anything to do with the religion which formed after their passing (so why wouldn't Buddhism be a religion?) I've never met a religion that hadn't completely distorted and corrupted the original teaching. Spirituality is something akin to the science of spirit/truth/Self/knowledge. While there is NO formal structure therefore no leader and no follower, if there is a legitimate point to spirituality then it exists squarely in our desire to explore and discover the truth about truth.

Again, Spirituality is matter of personal desire to go beyond the known and find for one's Self. Religion is really result of powers needing to co-opt the popular teaching, repackage it and sell it to the masses after issues regarding integrity are replaced by one's of obedience.

Regarding the Law of Accident, the Law of Fate, a question regarding the law of Attraction

... you take something powerful like that out of context and the next thing you know everyone MECHANICALLY ASSUMES they understand enough of it to explain exactly how it exists in their lives, when in fact they have nothing remotely the same as the source of that in the beginning.

@Colleen ~ For ordinary men and women, their lives can be said to be under the law of accident. It's only when a man becomes #4 and begins real work on his being and self-remembering that he begins to come under the law of fate in which this saying shared/quoted by Esoman becomes something reliable to consider. The law of accident could be understood then to be THE basic characteristic of ordinary men/women in which it follows that their being attracts hardly anything at all, all is mechanical, with no conscious order, and whatever is present in their being at any given moment is completely a function of the reactionary nature of their many different I's, imaginings, false personalities, etc. etc.

Once a person begins to gravitate to the work and begins to develop their being consciously, life will begin to show up more along the vein of how Eso talked about it. It's important to understand that it is here and increasingly so that if one doesn't like what one is attracting that evolved consciousness will provide a person with the energy and higher support required to change one's being if one so desires.

Now it's important to recognize here that a certain principle or wisdom seems almost to obvious to mention here, regarding the possibilities in this transformation. The wisdom is simply that one rely less and less on belief and open more and more trusting of the unknown, the mystery, and the limitlessnss which is accessible in higher states of consciousness and being. If a person is not willing to embrace the relativity required in accurately relating to the cosmos then their work will lack the necessary force and sensation to be of any real use.

Such liberation therein exists where I don't have to be judged by others regarding my story or religious narrative, especially if that narrative is rooted in separating dichotomies of a past gone era. Like the notion that if you believe Christ to be your savior, etc you will enjoy eternal life. What a foul joke that is. At least its coming to an end, soon.

Obviously, there's more to the work than simply learning more and distinct things about myself and the cosmos, but clearly that process will never end, and my contact with higher influence, divine grace, God, or whatever will only be as real as open is the space in me regarding reverence and respect for the unknown above.